Ari
Song of the Day:Light, Light Sleep – The Gossip
If you ask my best friend, he’d make fun of me for never sticking with anything. I have a lot of good ideas, but as Alice says, “I give myself very good advice, but I very seldom follow it.”
I want to change this. This year has been a year of family and hibernation. I’ve been in a lot of ruts, I’ve been unhappy, overwhelmed, and crazy most of the time. For once, I want to make some good changes in my life, and stick with them. I want to find some projects, and stick with them. I want to find community, which has been hard to do with all the moving around I’ve been doing. I am living in a kind of isolation. I want to change it.
I know change can’t happen all at once, and for something to have sustaining power, it slow incremental change is better than fast, large amounts of change that fizzle out completely. There are a lot of things I want to do.
Right now, I’m a self-employed graphic/web designer. I live with my boyfriend, my sister, her husband, and their new baby in the house in which I grew up. I have a BA in art. I love making things. I’m shy most of the time, and completely fun and extroverted in the right circumstances, around people with whom I feel comfortable. I am broke. I have a lot of debt, from school, and this last year of unstable employment. I am out of shape. I am happy.
Yes, I am happy. Very happy. I am surrounded by people I love, have wonderful friends, though most of them are far away, I have a warm bed, and good food to eat.
So I have just two goals for this week. One, write everyday. Writing helps me talk to myself, think through things, gives me time to process what I’ve been thinking. It makes me have time to myself that is all mine. It’s not distracted by people, or internet, or TV, or any other way other people can occupy your brain space.Two, do yoga. I found this great yoga video and I have been doing it for the last three days. I love yoga. It makes me feel so good in my mind and body.
Hopefully, just doing those two things to start won’t be that hard. After 30 days, it will be even easier.